User blog:Jedfarcry223/Living With Non Verbal Learning Disorder

I had someone whom I only met one time back on August 18th 2018 try to attack me by creating a story that I ignored her while I was at a convention last weekend but I only ever talked to this person for 45 minutes top then 4 years later, they just decide to start acting like a victim and complaining that I blocked them on Twitter. I had a civil conversation with them on July 15th 2021 and was just laughing it off while I was getting ready to spend the weekend at my aunt's house then blocked me mid argument because they kept repeating the same thing over and over again while seemingly ignoring simple questions I was asking only to parrot the same thing that they've heard other people saying for 2 years. In my opinion the moment that you start off anything by saying You could have argued with me then that's a warning flag for me in my eyes because they've become so obsessed with social media that they think the real world is Twitter. I felt bad when I saw that they were trying to call me out behind a block just shows how petty people can be. I had a similar thing happen with a few people this year but now they are my friends because we actually talked about it privately and realized that we both acted out of hand. I'm not a bad person and I need to stop letting my guard down because it's what they want. They want to get in my head and make me act irrationally or make a fool of myself in public. However I have friends and family that support me and know that I'm not like everyone else. I'm proud of who I am and some trolls behind a screen aren't gonna get to me. It doesn't help that I started dealing with Anxiety when I was 13 and went through a brief period of time in December 2009 where I was an amnesiac because i had been taking the drug Concerta for two years at that point when I was prescribed a drug called Strattera, Putting me on an antidepressant when I had been taking Concerta for my learning disability caused a chemical imbalance where I was continuing to go through my day however I wouldn't remember doing anything. I'll never forget waking up one morning in my room with the lights on and breathing heavily because I had a severe panic attack in my sleep. I was taken off of Strattera immediately and started to regain fragments of my memory. Imagine being 13 years old and not knowing what is wrong with you then having an internship at a law firm for a few months during one of the worst years and it caused me to have mild anxiety attacks while I was working then resulting in the most severe panic attack I had in a decade where I was just lying on the floor in my living room unable to move or breath then slowly managing to get down to my room after 60 minutes and just lying on my bed crying while saying repeatedly in my head, "I need to get help with this and I can't keep pretending that I'm okay when I know that deep down I'm not". I had an appointment with an doctor and began taking Prozac on December 2nd 2019. It took a while for it to take effect and now I'm not back to normal but I'm taking it one day at a time. I am strong and I can beat this. I don't need to resort to violence or anger sometimes but I just need to meditate and reflect on the fact that I won't give up or give in to my inner demons